dear him
Dear Him,
Hi. It's insane how crazy I am about you and don't even know you yet... Or maybe I do but just don't know it yet. If that's the case hurry up cause I want to get this love story started, but I will wait for you as long as I need to. I've been dreaming about you since I was a little girl and I know you're as perfect as I've made you out to be, and even if you're not... I promise, Boy am I ever gonna love you.
I hope we date for a while and are the couple people are envious of, but the kind of love the influences others to. I hope you hold my hand in public and kiss my head randomly. I hope you pull me in by the waist and smile down to me. I hope I made you proud and I hope I make you happy. I want you to confide in me and come to me when you feel sad or scared cause I can only imagine what a crazy world it is to live in when as a man it's frowned upon to be sad or scared. I hope your Mama loves me cause that will mean a lot to me. I know you will love my family, and they will adore you. Laugh at moms silly jokes and have the beers with my dad. He loves having a boy around.
I hope when you pop the questions it's a surprise. But maybe let my sister know cause she will be able to help you out. Ask my dad, It will mean the world to him. The second you drop on that knee my tears are going to drop to the floor. If you get a picture of this moment it is something I will treasure forever but if you don't , don't sweat it. I will never ever forget how you made me feel by choosing me.
You're going to be a great Dad. I've known since I could remember that I was put on this earth to be a Mom... and I feel like part of that instinct is going to be picking a great Dad. I'm going to think your the hottest thing on earth and seeing you holding that little baby is going to make me want to do the thing that will make us lots more little babies. I hope we raise strong, caring, beautiful little humans.
I'm sorry for the days I'm sad or distant. Please know I don't love you any less. I'm sorry I can suck at communicating when I'm down. I hope it's never over anything pizza or white roses can't fix.
I hope life is treating you well and you go to sleep smiling. I hope you are living life to the fullest... I can't wait to meet you, but I will. We will start when the time is right and the stars aline and we are both ready for each other.
All my love,
Yours.